Ngomong cinta

Mencintai dan dicintai adalah hal yang paling sering dibicarakan, selain karena membahagiakan, cinta juga kadang menyakitkan. Kenapa ya nemuin orang yang sama-sama cinta kok susah banget. Apalagi buat cewek suka gengsi kalo deketin duluan, tapi kalo gak dideketin orangnya mana tau. Pantes aja ga nemu-nemu.

Seru ya ngelakuin sesuatu demi orang yang kita suka, misalkan ikut les bahasa Inggris karena dia juga les, atau sama-sama nulis blog biar dikira samaan suka nulis dan ada bahan buat dibicarain. kalo kalian pernah ngapain demi orang yang kalian suka? jawab dalam hati masing-masing ya.

Kalo dipikir-pikir ngelakuin kayak gitu woth it ga? orang yang kita suka notice ga? atau ada kemajuan? kalo ga dapet hasil apa-apa, nyesel ga? kalo inget pasti "dulu aku ngapain ya sampe segitunya". Jadi ceritanya abis nonton film yang nyeritain tentang cewek yang ngejar-ngejar cowoknya yang super cuek. Si ceweknya ngelakuin banyak cara dari jadi ketua kelas sampe nungguin tiap pagi buat ngasi makanan ke si cowok. gak taunya udah dari dulu si cowok ini suka.

Gara-gara nonton ini aku jadi mikir, apa usahaku kurang ya? Tapi kalo lebih dari itu kok ga enak cewek yang ngejar-ngejar. gengsi.

Mungkin karena terlalu sibuk ngelakuin ini itu buat si doi, kita jadi gak sadar ada orang lain yang ngelakuin ini itu buat kita.

Pesan yang bisa diambil dari tulisan ini adalah...

tidak ada

tidak ada yang namanya sia-sia, ngelakuin seseatu buat orang yang kita suka itu membahagiakan, percayalah pasti ada masa dimana kalian rindu ikut kepanitian karena 'dia' juga jadi panitia. Rindu ikut les bahasa Inggris bareng berharap bisa diskusi tentang materi les, padahal dianya jarang masuk. Rindu nungguin DM dari dia yang ga ngeread-read, padahal bisa update story.

Percayalah teman-teman akan ada waktu yang tepat ketika usaha-usaha kita ini berakhir dengan indah. Ini ada kata-kata dari bukunya Naela Ali, Stories for Rainy Days Volume II

"I believe that there is always the right one for every soul 

as there is always the right time for every thing.

Things might not go as smooth as we hoped it would be, 

but in the end all those years of understanding will be worth it." 

Selamat Malam.

Tumbuhan (My Point of View III)

Sudah lama tidak post anything. Berawal dari males nulis in english sampai ga ada content mau nulis apa. Kesibukan bertumbuh yang menuntut banyak waktu dan tenaga membuat sebuah tulisan dalam blog menjadi tidak penting.

Setelah melihat beberapa tulisan dari seorang kawan, tiba-tiba rindu nulis blog lagi. Setelah diliat-liat kok jadi kangen 'aku yang dulu'.

'Aku yang dulu'

Ketika berada di masa depan, melihat kebelakang akan membuat kita malu, kok bisa ya aku pede upload foto gini, bahkan foto-foto di facebook jaman SMP dan SMA yang indah pada masanya, sekarang disebar ke grup teman kuliah dan menjadi bahan tertawaan. Aku dulu gini banget yak.

Status alay juga termasuk. kalo dibaca sekarang jadi geli sendiri, apalagi hurufnya yang campur aduk sama angka. Terus juga kalo mengidolakan sesuatu sampai dijadikan profile picture, posting ini itu seputar idola kesayangan (kalo ini tetep sampe sekarang).

Tapi coba deh kita lihat diri kita yang dulu dari sisi pandang yang lain, 

Dulu bangga sekali upload foto selfie, foto diri sendiri, apalagi kalo pake stiker-stiker di photoscape dah ngerasa foto paling oke, dan paling gaul. Tapi sekarang suka ga pede, ngeliat instagram orang lain yang lebih 'oke' jadi gak bersyukur, kita cenderung membandingkan kehidupan kita dengan kehidupan orang yang kita lihat feed instagramnya, padahal belum tentu mereka yang feednya 'oke banget' hidupnya se-'oke banget' itu.

Status 4l4y. Pernah ga kita mikir kalo alay itu adalah suatu proses menuju kedewasaan, tulisan alay itu lah yang membuat tulisan kita sekarang tidak lagi alay. tulisan itu juga yang mengingatkan siapa diri kita dulu, tulisan itu juga secara tidak sadar membuat kita berubah. Dulu kalo mau nulis kita nulis aja, sekarang mau mulai nulis mikirnya takut kalo dibilang alay, padahal kalo ga dimulai, kita ga akan bergerak, diem ditempat, ga kemana-mana.

Mengidolakan sesuatu. Dulu kita kalo seneng mah, seneng aja. ga ada pikiran mau komen hate atau bikin war kefans lain. Bagiku idolaku, bagimu idolamu. Sekarang ntah kenapa komen hate lebih sering ditemukan, bikin second account buat komen-komen jahat. 

Kalo ga ada sesautu yang baik yang akan disampaikan lebih baik gak usah komen, bikin dosa.

Tumbuh, menuntut kita mau tidak mau, siap tidak siap, menjadi dewasa. Tanggung jawab yang lebih berat menunggu demi masa depan yang gemilang,

hingga kita lupa ambisi kita waktu kecil dulu, yang selalu ingin tau, selalu ingin berkarya, seneng gambar-gambar, berimajinasi, nonton doraemon, baca komik, tidur siang, ga ada tugas, pulang pagi, uang sangu sedikit tapi bisa jajan banyak (ini kok jadinya ngeluh), Sebuah pemikiran kita waktu kecil yang sangat tidak mungkin terjadi kalo kita mikirnya sekarang, kita pengen jadi apa aja (dulu aku pengen jadi astronot, karena pengen ke bintang) tapi sekarang belum mikir kita dah bilang 'ah, ga mungkin' nah pemikiran kayak gini nih yang ga boleh sering-sering dipikirin, karena percayalah bahwa segala sesuatu di dunia ini bahkan yang tidak mungkin sekalipun, akan terjadi jika Allah menghendaki, makanya berdoa, tawakal, ikhtiar, karena tidak ada yang mustahil bagi Allah.

aamiin (self reminder).

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Sebuah pernyataan saat lebaran 'wahh, adek tumbuhan ya sekarang'

kalo diartikan dalam bahasa yang benar 'wahh, adek udah gede ya sekarang'

atau dalam bahasa yang lebih menyakitkan 'wahh, adek  gendutan ya'

......

Selamat Malam

Tell Me What is Love

Who missed me?......*cricket**cricket**cricket*

 Anyone?..... cricket**cricket**cricket*

okay, I knew my blog had spiders here and there but here I am. After one whole year I haven't post anything (How bad I was) finally I could make one *dance dance*. For your Information, I already 18 years old and my last post when I was 16. This year is my last year in Senior high school. New friends, experience, and more.  My sister, Novita had married a year ago and she is pregnant now, Mbak Billa had a boyfriend, and I... You know I have a boyfriend too, but we're in a distance relationship because he's still in the future.hehehe

So tell me what is love is like my point of you about love. Honestly, it's so hard to describe 'Love' when I haven't even felt it yet. In this case I discuss about Love to your boy/girlfriend not your family. When I see my friends who deeply in love, I envy them, even when they crying, I still envy them. They do anything for their love, even the impossible one. They will embarrass themselves and put anyone else after him/her. When you start to like someone, you want everybody know, World have to know that I fall in love, update anything so he/she can read such as "OMG, his smile. I'm gonna die", "can you see me? I'm right here", "he said Hi, he said Hi, he said Hi", "He talked to me, my face was as red as tomato, OMG" and start to download new songs that reflect your heart, use the lyrics for your next post. "Cause All of me, love all of you", "could it be love, could it be something that I never had?", "I'm officially missing you"

The question is.... did she/he have a boy/girlfriend or someone she/he like?

First, let's say your babe is single

Oh my god, doctor said that you had kepo syndrome (knowing every particular object). you search her/his ex, how is he/she? and after you see the X you'll say "his ex is ugly, I'm prettier" or "she's not pretty.....*a moment latter* well, She's prettier than me tho', but who cares! love is blind anyway.... *a moment moment latter* she's really pretty *cry hard* I don't have chance" usually girls do that (I'm a girl too). After you do some research, you start to be closer to your love. send text message, waiting patiently, nah this is where the problem show up. you start "The Speculation", why she/he doesn't reply? what takes her/him so long? did she/he already have a date? is she/he busy and much much more. Let's say you had been closer and he haven't ask you to be his girlfriend (Boys usually asks first) Girls, don't, DON'T trust any of their reason, if he really loves you, he'll ask you to be his girlfriend and this is where PHP (giving a fake hope) syndrome was found, well PHP syndrome usually attached both boys and girls. She/He already called you Babe, Honey, Sugar, Flour, Egg, Mixer or anything but you still haven't been her/his date? one day she/he makes you happy and another day they make you cry. And what Should you do?

Lesson number 1: Be Patient, always.

Second, let's say you already be his/her girl/boyfriend

You are the happiest human on Earth. Congratulation!! "Fall in love is easy, but found someone who loves you back is hard" so, if you already make them yours you have been success in your life. firstly, you feel like you owned the world, everyone just rent to live on Earth while you cuddle each other. this is the example what you're gonna do "Logan's", "Sarah's", "Gmr's", "tft Logan :)".  Slowly you left your society. you forget your friends. Day after day passed, your 12th months anniversary comes and she/he doesn't say anything, they often texting or calling you. they unfriend you in Facebook, block your call, never reply your text, and said that they were busy. But you loved him/her very much, you did lesson number one and magically they text you again and apologize, they ask you to go dinner, gift a present and your relationship back to normal. week after week passed, she/he become a jerk once again and "The Speculation" make its comeback, you think that she/he may be cheating on you. You asks with all your heart, kindly, warmly, and she/he doesn't give you a sure answer.  And what should you do?

Lesson number 2: Don't Fall in Love, Rise with It

Third, Let's say your love already had a boy/girlfriend

You'll think it is impossible for you to love her/his. well, we never planed to like or love someone, that just happened like 'boof', even when you have beautiful classmate that is more beautiful than your lover, you might think that she prettier or more handsome. Love is weird. You're afraid to tell your best friends because they'll say that she/he have a boy/girlfriend and what make you scared is hearing your best friends make you realized that she/he can't be with you ever. Then, what can you do, you make yourself as secret admirer, watching everything they do, noted all she/he likes/dislikes, everything they do makes you smile, the small things become the big one. Tips for you in this situation is Don't stalk her/his SNS, you might hurt, believe me, I experience once. But, what if your best friends told you about that social media? then you have to believe your best friends. They don't want you to hurt yourself by loving someone whom doesn't love you back. And what should you do?

Lesson number 3: Back to Lesson Number one

it's a long post, isn't it? well, all of this is a true story. In my case it is. Love is the only one that make you happy and sad at once. Love has huge power to control yourself. Love has magic. Love could make No become Yes. Love is Patient's best friend, you can't live without both of it. Patient without love is bullshit, Love without patient is a lust.

So, tell me what is love?

"I'm not busy I'm just lazy" (My Point of View II)

Scene 1 :

"Gin, can you do it after this?" I was busy with packing my annoyed math books.

"emmb.. pardon?"

"Can you do the project that Mr. X was gave?" she/he said. 'Project? what project?'

I take my bag and put on my shoulders. "Sorry, I'm busy" I left.

Scene 2 :

I was reading a book in the meeting when the moderator asked me to pay attention.

Hot weather and only one fan in a room that had 25 peoples inside, smell of sweaty students, nobody speaks, silent everywhere, all eyes on you.

"Everyone please pay attention to coordinator when they do the presentation" his eyes on me.

I look up and rolling my eyes 'why should I'

"keep silent, please! Gin you are bothering everyone" someone told me.

'oke fine, I'm done! can I just make this meeting more relax? why so serious people? too serious isn't good. life is having serious fun or having fun seriously. please do not make me say I hate you'

Scene 3 :

can you imagine how many subject that WE, students have to study and do the homework? yes, everybody knows that become a teacher is harder than be a students? why? I don't know. I'll tell you something that every teachers want their students do.

Math.

"alright guys, have I gave you the task for this chapter?" My handsome, kind, good, and smart old with glasses teacher said. everybody just shook their head with an uninteresting looks while I was looking straight to the teacher face 'he looks like a cartoon character'

"ok then, I will give the task. mark it on your book. yes, that book with pencil everyone. ok, practice 1 no. 1,2,11,15,17,20 a b c. practice 2 no. 5 6 a-g. practice 3 no. 1 a and b. practice 4 17 d e, 18, 19. practice 4 no 22, 21. Practice 5 no 3, 7. Practice 6 all. Practice 7 no. 9,10. any question?" he said. all students mark the number on their book while I 'sir, actually that's the question. ' someone called me and I turn around.

"Can we do this in your house tonight?"

"Me too Gin, tonight in your house." they packed their things and move on like I already agree with that.

physic

"come on, come on, note what I said. I want to see your notebook. it is complete or not. if you have a notebook you'll be easier to study, alright? so everyone put your ruler up, yes like that. I want to know who don't bring a ruler."

a moment later...

"make a line in here and there. use your ruler wisely son. and where should I start?" He put his glasses in his nous. "line, sir" everyone replied.

"ah, and you have to make this angle. it is about 85 degrees"

many moment later...

"do this task and submit it tomorrow and get ready for you exam"

"but sir, we already had math homework and biology pretest." one of my friends said. 'is that true? I don't know. what task? what pretest? what are you?'

"it is your problem guys, that is the consequent. class dismiss" the teacher left.

"emmbb.. you said that you wanna go to my house tonight? I think it's good. you can do the task in my house" 'and I will copy it'  I smiled. she smiled. we left.

"I'm not busy. I'm not lazy. I'm just tired" -- gmr

My Point of View I

Would you guys like to excuse me for this post ? I really didn't have an idea what should I wrote. People always asked me "I wanna see more, more, more" after I didn't update anything in my blog. so for this one, I wanna wrote whatever in my mind and isn't like another post. I posted everysingle post in this blog because of  some reason. yeah, I wanted everything looks awesome so I posted whenever there was something special happen. but the hard things were.. I didn't know how to write all of that awesome events. I called it muse, when I really liked something and it must force me to write. if my fingers didn't move for some words that means I can't find my muse in there. so tonight, with or without my muse, I wanna write this.

like we talk. writing is like something you must think so hard before you publish, you know why, because we can't delete someone memories with just delete our post. so I really wrote this post carefully. Talking about writing, why I kept that 'write' word? because I want someday in my another life or maybe in this life to be a writer. not the famous one but the good one. I want my writing skill can move someone heart or at least make them entertained, but what can I do if I always made mistakes on my grammar here and there. oh for your information I wanna be a writer who write with English not Bahasa. don't take it bad, I was just thinking that if I wrote my story with English everyone can read my story not only Indonesian, but if I famous enough to write in Bahasa, maybe some company will translate mine to another languages, don't they? 

I'm just inspired by some writers. did you guys ever heard about Fan Fiction ? fan fiction is where fans write a story about their idol, more or less like that. and I usually read fanfic about my idol EXO. I haven't mentioned them, have I? yes I was inspired by all of fans that wrote so awesome stories. I wanna make one too, but I'm just afraid people will correct my grammar and forget about what story is, and up to now I'm thinking about this. I didn't have so much time to write because of my laziness and my duty as a student. err-- such a lame reasons.. anyway I'm still writing my own story in here, right ?

Most of awesome stories --I often use awesome, don't I? haha, it's just because awesome sounds.. awesome-- are about something fluffy called Love and you know, the stories usually reflect their author. yes, usually wrote base on authors experience and that was so suck! because I don't have one. if I do it's just a simple love story like this ---

Once upon a time, I liked someone. I was so curios about him and go research whom he was. but time has passed and I got bored with him so I didn't like him anymore. the end.

or I used my imagination about it and wrote more dramatically like ---

Once upon a time, I loved someone. I was so curios about him and go research whom he was. but time has passed. he acted so weird, I didn't know why. suddenly, on valentine days he died. I was so depressed  that time and I thought I was gonna kill myself. when I felt the knife on my skin, I just realized that I didn't love him in the first place. The End.

that one sounds so creepy, doesn't it? but whatever, I really didn't get it what love is, yet. so I think this was the end of "my point of view I" see you in "my point of view II". bye ~

Make Friends, Make a History

What date is it ? what time is it?

Yupie yupie yeyeye!!

Guess what?

six letters, one meaning!

H-O-L-I-D-A-Y

Finally....

so, I did some of project beside spent my time together with my classmate because on 11th grade we can't be in the same class anymore. yeah so many tears and time full of joy. we gave one of our classmate a gift and so did they. Separating is the most difficult thing when we loved and cared somebody, right ? I really like when we were together, none could disparate us. we shared laugh, laugh, laugh, and little fought, maybe, but you know what, that was what I really missed. I missed that laugh, I missed that fought, I missed that little thing which happened in past one year. I know you missed me too guys, that's why I made a video for you. so if you miss me. us. you can replay it over and over again. it may not be perfect, but be honest, I made the video for 13 hours and I cry for that 13 freaking hours too. so guys, whatever you like my video or not, keep watching, ok?

I enjoyed myself when I was with you, you'll always be in my mind and heart (I hope you do so) it's time for us to make a friend, make a dream, and make a history with something new. something that we never imagine before and wish Allah always bless in anything you do, in the future.

Ok, maybe I was little over acting about this separating progress but that was what I really felt.
so yeah, as I said. "It's time to make a friend" I'm just starting that today.

another project, another photos, and another story.

emmmb, mb Rara called this project "Koyok ndek ndi... ngunu" hahaha, ok for you who aren't living in java island I'm gonna translate that cute phrase "seems like... somewhere" it's cute, isn't it? hohohehe maybe.
let's move...

so there was eight of us and five cameras.
We are..  Mbak Rara (@rerzizah), Mbak Bolang (@puput_bolang) , Mbak Ica (@faanisah) , Mas demsy (@demsyimanm) , Mas Faiz (@faizsutar), Mas Aam, Okky (@Okkilucius), ME, Nikon, Nikon, Nikon, Canon, Canon (guess what was my camera ? :p)

we went to someplace named 'Penampungan' I don't know why peoples around there called it like that because I didn't see anything that place something, did you ?
the weather was cold and hot at the same time. cold because of winds and hot because of him (?) *hahah, Just kidding don't take it serious.
and the scenery was... was... *OMG I lost my word. ck.* amazing, fantastic, beautiful, wonderful, magical, and and... oh I just didn't explain it clearly. but something that you have to know guys.
IT IS UNFORGETTABLE!! the weather, the scenery... everything.

and I absolutely brought my camera with me. yaeh, I'm so stupid if I didn't bring one, am I? as I said or I never said that I rather be the one who took a photo than be the one in it. so Mbak Rara took the opportunity to be the most person who has so many photo of the day and I think the another person was mas faiz, wasn't he?
we laughed so much and joked so much too and the person who make that joke mostly was Mas demsy, I don't know why, maybe something wrong happened in his mind. hahah, kidding. But I was really happy, have I said that? yaeah, really really combo combo (like mas faiz said) Happy that time!!

Let's sneak and peek our project called "seems like... somewhere" here we are!!

left to right : Okky, Mas demsy, Mbak Rara, Mas Aam, ME, Mas Faiz, Mbak Ica.
*why it was missing focus*

Photographer ? emmbb... Not Yet.

Mbak Ica ca ca ca ca, who recommended the place, thank you to you. I think she's quite beautiful, isn't she? hohoho, we are all beautiful. Not at all, I mean, the girls. but I think the boys just look like one? *you know what I mean xD*

He looks so weird. yeah, as I said, something wrong with his mind. -.-
look to the right photo. just he was trying to be sexy ? sorry, but NO to that pose. I laughed so hard. hahaha

uhhhh... here is the special one. Lumajang's next top model. hahaha, Mbak Rara with that beautiful white handmade dress. how lovely she is...


Next, I wanna tell you some episode that made me just.. embb, rolling my eyes.

 I can't handle this photo. hahaahaha, look. It just looks like a little girl who asked her daddy to buy  a Barbie and her daddy was just like "I don't have money. Ask your mom." alright it was me and Mas faiz after  I took his photo. can't stop laughing. hahahaha

 so, the street was empty uh?? NO it was absolutely not. Mbak Rara wore a dress and Mas Faiz asked her to pose like him. *tengkurep on street* and when a car came, she was just like "REALLY?" and she ran to somewhere that can save her from that annoying car. Mas Faiz seemed really enjoy that pose. -.-

and we bought a souvenir. not we, but some of us. you can see, they were so happy that time. look at mas faiz, he also brought out his money, so something ,isn't he ? -_-
but you know what guys. after we went home, mas Faiz just looked at his souvenir and kept complaining about How its colors, he said it looked like rasta *green, yellow, red* why the colors too bright, he said it looked weird not natural and Mbak Rara just said something that made him thought for a while.
she said "if that so then why you bought it?" smart girl. hahaha

-Senior line-
alright, just looking at that photo can make me laugh so deep hard.
whatever it was guys, catch you dream!!
you all aren't a high school students anymore. be wise, be good than before, be a person that useful for everyone and be everything... give us 'your junior' the best person that you guys can be.
hope Allah always bless for everything you do in good way.
we love you. Saranghae... ♥

Love Letter

From : Ginanda

to : My best Friend

Subject : you'll always be my best friend

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dear you,

       Remember the first time we met, you asked me "ehem, excuse me. could you tell me where is paragraph?" hihihi. trust me, I didn't know either but I still answered "perhaps, this.." and you followed my step. yeah, I always want to help everyone :p

        Since then, we were always together. and this was the moment that I cant forget. You had a relationship with someone whom I like!! >< I was angry, but I never thought to destroy our friendship! yes, I like him but I like you more. till came the time You broke up with him. and you met HIM.

        Finally, You were be his girlfriend. I was happy, happy, happy, sad, sad, sad, you slowly went away from me... 

       that time, I realized you love me but you love him more. I'm your friend and he's your boyfriend, I'll be your listener when you got any problem. I didnt jealous but I felt you didnt want to be my friend anymore, So I decided to be your friend when you need me to be.

       I can't cheer you up when you got a problem like now, but I want you to know that you'll always be my best friend..!


Sincerely, Ginanda

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