My Point of View I

Would you guys like to excuse me for this post ? I really didn't have an idea what should I wrote. People always asked me "I wanna see more, more, more" after I didn't update anything in my blog. so for this one, I wanna wrote whatever in my mind and isn't like another post. I posted everysingle post in this blog because of  some reason. yeah, I wanted everything looks awesome so I posted whenever there was something special happen. but the hard things were.. I didn't know how to write all of that awesome events. I called it muse, when I really liked something and it must force me to write. if my fingers didn't move for some words that means I can't find my muse in there. so tonight, with or without my muse, I wanna write this.

like we talk. writing is like something you must think so hard before you publish, you know why, because we can't delete someone memories with just delete our post. so I really wrote this post carefully. Talking about writing, why I kept that 'write' word? because I want someday in my another life or maybe in this life to be a writer. not the famous one but the good one. I want my writing skill can move someone heart or at least make them entertained, but what can I do if I always made mistakes on my grammar here and there. oh for your information I wanna be a writer who write with English not Bahasa. don't take it bad, I was just thinking that if I wrote my story with English everyone can read my story not only Indonesian, but if I famous enough to write in Bahasa, maybe some company will translate mine to another languages, don't they? 

I'm just inspired by some writers. did you guys ever heard about Fan Fiction ? fan fiction is where fans write a story about their idol, more or less like that. and I usually read fanfic about my idol EXO. I haven't mentioned them, have I? yes I was inspired by all of fans that wrote so awesome stories. I wanna make one too, but I'm just afraid people will correct my grammar and forget about what story is, and up to now I'm thinking about this. I didn't have so much time to write because of my laziness and my duty as a student. err-- such a lame reasons.. anyway I'm still writing my own story in here, right ?

Most of awesome stories --I often use awesome, don't I? haha, it's just because awesome sounds.. awesome-- are about something fluffy called Love and you know, the stories usually reflect their author. yes, usually wrote base on authors experience and that was so suck! because I don't have one. if I do it's just a simple love story like this ---

Once upon a time, I liked someone. I was so curios about him and go research whom he was. but time has passed and I got bored with him so I didn't like him anymore. the end.

or I used my imagination about it and wrote more dramatically like ---

Once upon a time, I loved someone. I was so curios about him and go research whom he was. but time has passed. he acted so weird, I didn't know why. suddenly, on valentine days he died. I was so depressed  that time and I thought I was gonna kill myself. when I felt the knife on my skin, I just realized that I didn't love him in the first place. The End.

that one sounds so creepy, doesn't it? but whatever, I really didn't get it what love is, yet. so I think this was the end of "my point of view I" see you in "my point of view II". bye ~